Dreams

Dreams make you what you end up finally in your life...at least for most people. You dream something, to be something or to achieve something. You relish that dream. You start finding ways to achieve those dreams, you set yourself goals, you work hard to achieve your goals and finally the dream. And once you achieve your dream, you are happy! And if by chance, you don't achieve it, you will still have the satisfaction that at least you tried. And then if you are still alive, you dream up something else, you relish that dream, you work hard...blah blah the cycle continues :)

Well, this is what I can call a Dream Cycle. But there is a step before all this. Getting onto the Dream Cycle :) and that is to first have a dream.

What if I don't have a dream? Then does that mean you are already happy with your life and wait what if you don't have a dream and you are not happy either? Does that mean, I have lost my dream somewhere in the mundaneness of life or have I just never dreamt it yet, or worse, that it is right in front of me and I don't realize that this is what I really really want?

And what if I don't know in what state I am right now? How do I find myself?
Do I blindly set my self some goals which make no sense to me? Or do I think practically and make up some reasonable goals to achieve? But if my goal is something realistic then how can it be a dream? And if it is not a dream and it doesn't have that charm, that elusiveness that excites you, entices you! :)

And what if your dream is something very negative, very dark? And thankfully you are sane enough to realize and thus not to follow it. But you are still not happy. So what will you do?

What will you do if you are stuck in an overlap of dreams and reality and you can't decide which one to choose? Do you continue to live a life in disillusion and wait for reality to catch up when you finally realize that oh, I can't reach my dreams anymore and so be sad about it or do you just come back to reality and strive to improve upon something meaningless?

All this and more eludes, deludes, dispositions me. And I know, I am a sail less ship out in the storm, whose only destiny is to get wear down enough to shatter against the waves. But hey, the debris will still reach the shore, or maybe at least a few of them .... :)